The weather this trip has been far from nice. I had well over 200 miles of fog which really makes for a slow, slow ride. Then the fog turned into a welcomed rain. Until it started to freeze.
I guess the weather took my mind off being lonely. It doesn’t come round very often, but sometimes it does, even when I’m so use to being alone. Even when I try to push it away. Generally I love it. My time alone, not poor weather. I love my rides across the country and Monday when I left I was so feeling it. But yesterday, I just felt lackluster. I missed home. I missed Hubs.
I am always out here alone, but rarely am I lonely. But, sometimes lonely catches me off guard.
And there is a difference between lonely and being alone you know? Yesterday, I was lonely. There was no loud music pulling me down the highway, only the sound of Rosies engine and my thoughts that revolved around Hubs, my cats, my chickens and my kitchen.
Sometimes when I’m lonely, I think I punish myself thinking I come out here just so I know I still can. To know I am tough enough & most importantly good enough to be out here. Or is that bullheadedness? Maybe a bit of them all, who knows.
Maybe it was all the two lane highways that got me down. Once I got onto the interstate I flew across I40 trying to make the best time as I could. It was 36 degrees most of the way and I knew once it got dark the road conditions would change. I stopped in Moriarty for fuel and a quick shower and then hit the highway again.
This morning I’m 4 hours from where I need to be, so I have time which is good since I woke to more snow. Thankfully, I feel better about the day ahead. My loneliness has passed and I know I have work to do. Even though I’m guessing the snow will make for more problems among some of the motorists today.
I hope you all have a safe day.
xo
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You have friends! You just have to NOT be bullheaded and call! Love ya!
Maybe it’s the weather or sun spots or something, but I felt the same way yesterday. I am not traveling yet, but will be tomorrow and Friday and I think I had the lonelys in advance. I rarely get them either, so why now? I am glad you are feeling better and I am today also. SAFE travels to home!
Fog and cold can make for some bleak thoughts. Fortunately they usually are just temporary visitors.
We are not our thoughts–no need to invite them in for tea unless you want to.
The sky in these photos is beautiful, dramatic.
Take care and travel safe, Bethany.
Thank you Steph~ I love your thoughts on this!
Bethany, Your not thew only one that feels that way. We all get tgose days. An anyone who says thgey don’t is lying an doing a great disservice to themselves. You need to talk, you can call any time!!
I’m sure this is gonna get me in trouble, but I thought the pictures were beautiful. I love dark, cloudy skies. But I know that’s not for everyone, so I hope you are now feeling more like your usual cheery self.
You won’t ever get into trouble with me Gus! I too love dark, cloudy skies but that day for some reason it just hit me wrong!
we know you Beth it as the fact that Rosie was dirty that brought the cloomy ride, pretty pics tho have a safe trip~
Great letter. You hit the nail on the head.
Thank you Ken~
Absolutely beautiful shots. It looks lonely…
Thank you!
Thanks so much for a great blog! You have some wonderful photos from the road.. Thanks for sharing with us! Keep up the good work!